Let the Thing Go!

03 Apr 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , , , , , , , ,

Music of the Day – Daylight by Maroon 5

Link to music/lyrics – http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/maroon5/daylight.html

Truth time! And you have to be perfectly honest with yourself here – I am! Even though this song is about a break up between two lovers, the energy of the song reminds me of how we hold onto those things/events/stories that no longer serve us and bring us pain. Yeah, we get so caught up in our stories and attachments that we just don’t want to let go.

Examining our attachments to thing/event/stories shows us just how much we rely on the story behind them and just how much we create a perfection about them. We get so caught up in the victim/it’s their fault story that we don’t see how much these thought processes are holding us back from realizing our greatness/awesomeness!

And when we see, really see, just how destructive this story is, we still want to hold on just a bit longer – just one more day. Why? Because this Thing has become a part of our own story and we are attached to it thinking that without it, we just cannot exist. There is a stanza in the song that says:

I never want it to stop
Because I don’t wanna start all over
Start all over
I was afraid of the dark
But now it’s all that I want
All that I want, all that I want

Isn’t that what is so scary about letting this Thing go? Starting over – recreating ourselves – realizing our own self-worth, self-value, self-love without the story surrounding the Thing! Yeah, it’s a scary place to face. And as long as we stay in the darkness of the Thing/Story, we feel safe! We do not want the daylight to come because then we have to really face letting go of the Thing/Story. And yet, we know it is inevitable that we face the Thing and finally let it go – release it.
And so, we hold on just for a bit longer to make sure that we are ready, “Cause in the daylight we’ll be on our own!” Are you ready to be on your own without the Thing/Story? I know I am!

 

Sing and Believe

04 Feb 2014 Leave a comment

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Music Muse of the Day – Love Away by Capital Cities

Link with lyrics – http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/capitalcities/loveaway.html

It sounds so cliché, but the opening phrase of the song says it all:

Love, just love away
Just do it every day
Just do it every way

We get so caught in our daily stories, don’t we?  Oh, and we create such amazing sad stories and pity parties and focus on the negatives in our lives and in those around us.  When we forget what our primary heart Beingness is – to love – then we find ourselves in spaces of self-doubt, self-pity, and self-hate.  Before long, we have been sucked under in a vortex of despair, loneliness, and sadness ignoring what is so incredibly right in our lives.

I admit that there are times when I get so caught in the What Ifs and wondering what my life would be like if there were other circumstances, that I cannot “see the forest for the trees.”  But then, something snaps me back and there is that amazing forest in which the only trees that are grown are trees of love.  It is then that I remember my heart Beingness purpose – to love.  Nothing more, and most definitely, nothing less.

That means love for my teachers and the life lessons they bring, love for myself, love for my family, love for my friends, love for the great honor of sharing a life with the people that love me – even with those that do not love me.  I just figure that if someone does not love me, they just haven’t seen my expansive beauty inside – my heart Beingness.  And, quite frankly, it is their loss!

Lessons of love come in the most surprising places when we are open to receiving love.  I was reminded before my daily music muse post that I do not need anyone’s approval to know and understand my own worth and value.  Love Away reminds me that being open to receiving love brings belief in my Self, my world, and my heart Beingness.

Money, power, a man of means
Chasing down irrational dreams
But when you came along
I was freed of it
Throw your TV out the door
One, two, three, four, on the floor!
And if you sing a song
You’ll believe in it

Music has always been a defining factor in my life, and today is no different.  Love Away reminded me of the importance of experiencing love – each and every day.  Sing this song?  You can’t help but believe!  This would seem a natural segue way to Don’t Stop Believing by Journey – another reminder of belief in our Selves and our value.  There is a joke going around my circles.  “If I stop believing, will Journey be mad?”  No, but you will!

If you find yourself in the middle of not believing and being caught up in your own stories of what is wrong in your life, stop already!  Sing a song and believe!  And then,

Love, just love away
Just do it every day
Just do it every way

We are Beautiful!

31 Jan 2014 Leave a comment

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Music Muse of the Day – Together Again by Evanescence

Song link with lyrics – http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/evanescence/togetheragain.html

Pain, loss, fear

Leaving behind what we thought was so dear (my words).

How often do we take what is so close to us for granted?  And how often do we realize that what we love and hold so dear is precious when we don’t have it?

What speaks to me most this morning is the pain of leaving the true self in search of what would seem to be a more lovable and valuable false self.  We let the outer world become more of what we desire rather than allow our inner world to be realized.  We are told that we should look and act a certain way if we are to be desirable and loved.  Some of us are programmed that way from childhood, and when we find that place in which we know our programming is false and wrong, we still believe the programming instead of believing what we know deep inside to be true.

There is a quote that is attributed to Marilyn Monroe, “I was never told I was pretty as a little girl.”  That quote came to me this past week, and I took some time to think about what I was told as a little girl.  Be ready, now.  I am baring my soul here.  When I was a little girl, I was not told I was pretty.  In fact, I was told that I would never be loved so I should learn not to expect to find love.  So, I grew up believing that I was not pretty or lovable or acceptable.

When that special someone came into my life and told me I was beautiful and that he loved me, I heard the words, but deep down just did not believe it.  As a young woman, being told I was beautiful was not accepted and I always came up with a “yeah, but…” So, I threw myself into raising my kids and being a strong independent woman always trying to be pretty, but never believing I could. Always comparing myself to other women, knowing I could never measure up.

A life altering event occurred several years back that changed how I saw myself.  From that point, I had to leave the old me behind – including the old name.  Through the past few years of searching for my true self, I had to leave behind Terri. I found a world “where love and dreams and darkness all collide” just as the song said.  The journey from there to here is spoken well in the lines:

So many fears were swimming around and around in my mind
Who would have dreamed the secrets we would find

Today, a bit of those fears still linger, but love is taking me back home to the little girl from so long ago.  She will never be the same, but the new woman is here.  I can take that little girl named Terri, and hug and embrace her taking her into Renee – loved, cared for, protected, and yes, we are beautiful!

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