Plan C

06 Feb 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , ,

Thursdays, I write at Starbucks after I drop my daughter off at work. Plan A:  Get to Starbucks, get coffee, set up, and write my Music Muse. So, Plan A didn’t work. It’s raining and it has been so long since we’ve had rain that people have forgotten how to navigate through the rain. I dropped my daughter off, but on the way, a bad accident delayed me big time. On to Plan B!

Plan B: Get to Starbucks, get coffee, set up and write. The place was full! By the time I parked, got my coffee, there was no place to set up. Plan C!

Got coffee, go to car, write a quick blog on my Galaxy, and write Music Muse when I get home this evening. So, no music blog this morning, but what this does do is remind me to always be flexible. 

There are 26 letters in the alphabet, so one of them has to work, right?

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This is Why We Do It

05 Feb 2014 2 Comments

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , , , ,

Music Muse of the Day – This = Love by Script

Link to YouTube with lyrics in the description:  http://youtu.be/Ta-tUVnhXlc

Today I just have to post the lyrics in the post.  You will understand soon.

Have you ever had one of those mornings that just made you wonder why you even got out of bed?  This morning was one of those for me.  So, let’s begin.  My alarm goes off at 5:00 am, and I drop my phone behind the bed.  As I was pouring my first cup of coffee, I spilt the coffee on my hand.  I sit and wake up enjoying the coffee after running cold water over my hand.  I get into the shower and stub my toe on the side of the tub.  As I reach for the bottle of Gardenia bath gel (in a glass bottle), I drop the bottle and it shatters on the floor of the tub cutting my foot.  I end the shower quickly and clean up the glass not realizing that shards of glass are on the floor outside the tub.  Yep, stepped right on a piece.

Fast forward to getting gas in the car before picking up my daughter to take her work.  I start the pump, and it stops at 81 cents.  I’m on empty, so I know it’s not done.  The attendant wouldn’t reset the pump and told me to move to another one.  I couldn’t because the others were full and I was already running late.  He told me to go to another station.  I guess I wasn’t being very sweet at that point.  After filling up the car across the street without incident, I picked up my daughter and grandson.  Took my grandson to my house so that my husband could take him to school and yelled at husband needlessly about keeping grandson’s backpack in his car.  He takes him to school – silly me!  I wasted a good yell for nothing!

We got on the freeway.  Traffic came to a grinding halt. A major car accident that made a normal 20 minute drive over an hour.  I get home to a very disgruntled husband and, yeah, tension was in the air.  As I sat down to listen to the random song on my playlist for this morning’s music muse, my question to myself was:  “Why do I do this?”  And here is this song.

I urge you to click on the link and listen to the song.  Read the lyrics.  Nothing much needs to be said.  The theme for the past two weeks has been about love for ourselves and moving beyond the junk that happens in our lives.  We get so caught up in what is happening in our own world that we forget the big picture.  We get caught up in the But Ifs, the What Ifs, the Buts, and the If Onlys.  Everything that is important to us and is meaningful is right there in front of us to grab and hold onto in these times.  Sometimes, mornings like mine are there to remind us to slow down and take a look at where our thoughts are taking us.  It’s not about smooth sailing all of the time or having perfect lives where nothing goes wrong.  It’s about love, period.

The last stanza says it all.  Pay attention!

If you could be anywhere that you wanted to be
With anyone that you wanted to be with
Do anything that you wanted to do
What would it be and who would it be with you
Time flies but you’re the pilot
It moves real fast but you’re the driver
You may crash and burn sometimes

You are the driver – you are the pilot!  What are you going to do?  Crash and burn and stay down?  Or are you going to get back up again and go beyond!

This is why we fall down
And get back up again
This is where the heart lies
This is from above
Love is this, this is love

Lyrics:
It’s in the eyes of the children
As they leave for the very first time
And it’s in the heart of a soldier
As he takes a bullet on the frontline
It’s in the face of a mother
As she takes the force of a blow
And it’s in the hands of the father yeah
As he works his fingers to the bone

I’m standing under a white flag oh
Can you see me oh
Can you see me oh
I’m standing for everything we have oh
Can you hear me oh
Can you hear me oh

This is why we do it
This is worth the pain
This is why we fall down
And get back up again
This is where the heart lies
This is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it
Love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down
And get back up again
Love is where the heart lies
Love is from above
Love is this, this is love

It’s in the soul of a city
What it does after it crumbles and burns
And it’s in the blood of a hero
To know where he goes he may never return

This is why we do it
This is worth the pain
This is why we bow down
This is why we fall down
This is where the heart lies
This is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it
Love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down
And get back up again
Love is where the heart lies
Love is from above
Love is this, this is love

If you could be anywhere that you wanted to be
With anyone that you wanted to be with
Do anything that you wanted to do
What would it be and who would it be with you
Time flies but you’re the pilot
It moves real fast but you’re the driver
You may crash and burn sometimes

This is why we do it
This is worth the pain
This is where we bow down
This is where we fall down
This is where the heart lies
This is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it
Love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down
And get back up again
Love is where the heart lies
Love is from above
Love is this, this is love

Get back up and Love already!

The Great But If

03 Feb 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , ,

Music Muse of the Day – One Thing by Alicia Keys

Music Link – http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/aliciakeys/onething.html

http://youtu.be/5zeGB_maNKo

There is something to be said when we have expectations of others that are not met.  Have we set our expectations too high?  Have we made our expectations known?  Are we so intent on having our own expectations met that we ignore those that belong to others around us?

These are questions that are brought up with today’s music muse.  Expectations.  It has been said that when we speak our intentions, we set our expectations such that there is no compromise.  But, often, it seems that compromise becomes the reality rather than what we thought we had intended.  It is then that we must ask ourselves if we really held our intentions with expectation or was there a But If?

What is a But If?  We are taught that when we set our intentions, we state clearly, specifically, and in the present.  We state I am, I know, I have statements – not I wish, I will, I am going to statements.  Now, here is the mind wiggle.  How often have we said, “I know I have ________!”

And deep down in our heart of hearts, we actually say, “I know I have ______, But If I can’t have ________, then I’ll take __________.”  You fill in the blanks.  The song says, “I’ll take one thing over everything.”  That is the huge But If!

We should never settle for the big But If.  If you want something in your life, own it.  State it without a But If.  State it fully knowing what you want and create the events in your life to bring about your intent without a But If.  Those But Ifs get in the way of creating our successes, our joy, our bliss, our happiness.  Continue enough of those But Ifs, and soon that is what you have – compromised joy, compromised bliss, compromised life.

Don’t get caught up in your story either.  We create these stories about why we do not have what we truly desire.  My stories have gotten in the way of my receiving so many times, and I have compromised and accepted big But Ifs.  The reminders are always there – just outside the reach, and leaving behind the But If and embracing I Am creates exactly what is the most amazing and brilliant part of me and my Self.

Leave those But Ifs behind and move into Or Better.  Do not compromise on your intents, and be open to the gifts waiting for you.  Be a true co-creator with Source.  There are no But Ifs allowed here!

Don’t Hold Me Down

23 Jan 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in All About Me, My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , , , ,

Today’s music muse – Don’t Hold Me Down by Colbie Caillet

Link to the song:  http://youtu.be/d3zLCKaEfb0

When I opened this song this morning, my first thought was “Wow”!  It felt that Colbie was in my head and my heart.  The first stanza says,

I’m just so tired of these troubles that I try to hide.
Makes me wanna wash away my whole world inside.
I think it’s time that I make changes in the things I do.
This weight on my chest I am ready to loose.

I have been in the process of making “changes in the things I do” for several years, and there are times when I feel as if I am in a hamster cage running around and around in circles going nowhere.  I have kept my real feelings hidden for a very long time – wanting to make changes, yet not sure how.  Not being one to shy away from a fight, I go round after round pulling myself to a new place.  Sometimes, it is a good place, and sometimes, it feels unsafe and toxic.  It is those times that weigh me down for a while until I break away.  Over time, the weight of the struggle and battle feels too much, so I hide.  My mother-in-law had a saying that fits here.  “I just keep putting one foot in front of the other.”  Wait, it gets better!

Second stanza:

I have been rocking back and forth across the line.
Hanging for a moment on the wrong side.
Now I’m standing up, I think I’ll be here for a while.
Hope I remember how to keep on this steady smile.

“I have been rocking back and forth across the line – hanging for a moment on the wrong side.”  So, all I can say is, “That!”  I’ve been on the wrong side often trying to crawl out of self-dug holes.  I’m at the edge, standing up and standing strong.  That steady smile?  I smile because I am standing up!  And now for the chorus:

Don’t hold me down.
Oh, I was getting so far.
Don’t hold me down.
Cause I don’t wanna fall apart.
Don’t hold me down.
You see me waking up and feel it now.
I’m breaking down and nothing’s gonna stop me now.

We do get in our own way, don’t we?  Often, it is easy to blame the people in our lives, but in the end, it is up to our own selves.  If someone else gets in the way or holds us down, it is because we allow it.  We can wake up and say no to ourselves.  Say yes to be strong and speak your voice.  What do you want to break through?  Are you ready to wake up?  It is that waking up process that breaks down the walls and obstacles and lets us soar.  Finally,

I know I’m gonna fight it.
I’m tired of being blinded.
So….

I won’t hold me down.
Oh, I wanna go so far.
I won’t hold me down.
I don’t wanna fall apart.
Don’t hold me down.
You see you’re waking up and feel it now.
I’m breaking down and nothing’s gonna stop me now.

No, no.
Nothing’s gonna stop me now.

Saying, “I know I’m gonna fight it” seems like a self-prophecy, but we are, after all, human.  And when we move out of our comfort zones, it is our nature to fight it – even if that comfort zone is not a good place.  But making the statement, “I won’t hold me down,” and “Nothings gonna stop me now” is a ground breaking step.  Don’t hold yourself down!  “You see you’re waking up and feel it now!”  Wake up!

“I’m breaking down and nothings gonna stop me now!”