Has it already been almost a month since my last blog? It is mind boggling how much has happened in the past few weeks.
One lesson I have learned is that I manifest my thoughts much faster these days. So, my new mantra? Please be gentle!
Since the end of February, I’ve gone through financial chaos, physical chaos, and emotional chaos. Why? Did I really ask for these things? Actually, yes I did! It is important to remember that our thoughts create our lives – both good and bad depending on perception. Ah, but there really is not a good or bad, is there? Again, depends on perception. For instance, let’s talk about financial chaos first. I have been receiving messages for the past year that it is time to move forward from being a massage therapist into an integrated counselor, teacher, and Lightworker. I knew that it was certainly the time to move to what I was being called to do in my heart. And . . . I kept letting Universe know that I knew it was time. Of course, my logical self – ego – felt that it would happen the way It – my ego – wanted. But my spiritual self and my connection to Source had already made the Universal order. So, the wheels were set in motion. And, I didn’t listen very well – even when my professional life became the classic Tower Card in a Tarot reading. I had the rug pulled right out from under me several times in the last months. And still, I allowed my ego to go forward into the dark night. All along, I continued to say, “I’m ready to make the change.” So, here comes the 2×4 – the first one! I was involved in a minor car accident that resulted in another whiplash for myself – rear end collision while we were stopped at a red light. I had to cancel clients and some classes. The x-rays showed slippage on a disc in my cervical spine, but, my gifted doctor also discovered a separation of the tendon that houses the ulnar/radial nerve in my left arm – exactly the hand that goes numb and gives pain after working on several – now a single – deep tissue client in a day. I was to take it easy for a few weeks to heal. Well, a girl has to make a living right? So, I continued to see clients – icing and wearing a splint between clients. Yeah, that should do it, huh? So, another 2×4 – the flu! Now, I hardly get sick and when I do, my immune system kicks in quickly. Noooo, not this time. Completely put me to bed! So, I had to take time off. Results? Financial chaos – physical chaos – emotional chaos. Spirit forcing me to take time. So, I did – no choice, actually!
During this time, I have been undergoing tremendous internal spiritual processing. It started when a mentor I trusted completely betrayed my trust on every level. I was forced to go within and really search where I was going in my spiritual and professional life. So, I took the time off to really ask Spirit to give me clarity and vision on my next steps.
I have been given such visions during this time. Holy Mother has directly talked to me and shown me things. I have met the dark side of my psyche and learned how important it is to integrate both the dark and light. I have been shown how important it is to go within and really listen in silence to what I am being told. She has given me insights into where my next steps are. So now?
Well, I am in financial recovery and physical recovery and emotional recovery. Spiritually, I really wasn’t in chaos – just needed to take time to listen better. The physical and financial will take some time – not long, though. I am a tremendous manifestor – of that I am sure! My body is mending very nicely – I do have a way to go with my neck, but as my true voice is heard louder and clearer, that will mend as well. Emotionally? Well, I am always one for embracing my emotions as they come. And that I do. You see, by embracing my emotions I can really become the observer responding to situations instead of reacting. This way, I work through events quicker and much healthier. Spiritually – all I can say is that my path is clearer and my purpose and calling are clearer. Of course, it is a journey and as my friend, Harmony, says, “It’s all about the journey!” Sorry, my friend – I had to use it. But it is well worth it.
As we move forward through this year and the changes that are coming, one constant remains! We are not alone on this ride. We have a full team of spiritual and physical allies to help us through. One thing I ask my guides now is:
Please be gentle with me!
Blessings in Love and Light!
Gaia Renee
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