Let Go and Dream

18 Jun 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , , , , ,

Music for the Day – Dreams by Stevie Nicks

Link to Music/Lyrics – http://www.songlyrics.com/stevie-nicks/dreams-lyrics/

Sometimes, in our lives we feel we have lost the dream we once imagined. We start off with these visions of where our lives should go and dreams of the most amazing events happening in our life.

Then we reach a certain age, and look back wondering what happened to the dreams and visions of that young girl who entered this life full of expectations of how things would be. I remember that girl – scared and fearful that the man she chose to share her life with would leave realizing that she wasn’t so great after all and that it was just an illusion.

I have reached that age when the children are grown and living their own lives. And I still have those dreams that remain strong and very real. You see, I just put them on hold for a while. I am still young enough to make them a reality and old enough to recognize how it plays out according to my own self-limitations, and no other.

I am pursuing the dream of writing, working on the dream of painting, and envisioning the dream of playing music. It’s all there – inside of me just waiting to blossom into what I had dreamed.

Many obstacles in my life have provided that which comes to life in my writing and painting. Poetry is just becoming another avenue of expression. The music? I’m thinking getting another guitar and re-acquainting myself with an instrument that saved my life in my early teens, besides the piano.

One thing that I have learned is that challenges and “players” will come and go, but those visions and dreams remain. I kept them to myself, but now, I feel the freedom to let go, throw them in the air, and see where they land! I cannot depend on any one person or event to make it happen for me. That is up to me, and I am on the edge of letting loose. I will jump and fly, landing where I land with the old expectations of the girl of so long ago with one difference – she has moved out of that scared feeling and taking the courage to step out.

I really do not know where this will take me, but I am open to the possibilities. I am open to embracing all of the amazingness of me! I am open to embracing where I am taken regardless of the path to get there, because I depend on me, and me alone, to make this happen.

Oh, that man I shared my life with that I was afraid would discover the truth about me and would leave. Well, 40 years later, he is still here. He knows the truth about me, and yet, he still holds on. Amazing!

This is Why We Do It

05 Feb 2014 2 Comments

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , , , ,

Music Muse of the Day – This = Love by Script

Link to YouTube with lyrics in the description:  http://youtu.be/Ta-tUVnhXlc

Today I just have to post the lyrics in the post.  You will understand soon.

Have you ever had one of those mornings that just made you wonder why you even got out of bed?  This morning was one of those for me.  So, let’s begin.  My alarm goes off at 5:00 am, and I drop my phone behind the bed.  As I was pouring my first cup of coffee, I spilt the coffee on my hand.  I sit and wake up enjoying the coffee after running cold water over my hand.  I get into the shower and stub my toe on the side of the tub.  As I reach for the bottle of Gardenia bath gel (in a glass bottle), I drop the bottle and it shatters on the floor of the tub cutting my foot.  I end the shower quickly and clean up the glass not realizing that shards of glass are on the floor outside the tub.  Yep, stepped right on a piece.

Fast forward to getting gas in the car before picking up my daughter to take her work.  I start the pump, and it stops at 81 cents.  I’m on empty, so I know it’s not done.  The attendant wouldn’t reset the pump and told me to move to another one.  I couldn’t because the others were full and I was already running late.  He told me to go to another station.  I guess I wasn’t being very sweet at that point.  After filling up the car across the street without incident, I picked up my daughter and grandson.  Took my grandson to my house so that my husband could take him to school and yelled at husband needlessly about keeping grandson’s backpack in his car.  He takes him to school – silly me!  I wasted a good yell for nothing!

We got on the freeway.  Traffic came to a grinding halt. A major car accident that made a normal 20 minute drive over an hour.  I get home to a very disgruntled husband and, yeah, tension was in the air.  As I sat down to listen to the random song on my playlist for this morning’s music muse, my question to myself was:  “Why do I do this?”  And here is this song.

I urge you to click on the link and listen to the song.  Read the lyrics.  Nothing much needs to be said.  The theme for the past two weeks has been about love for ourselves and moving beyond the junk that happens in our lives.  We get so caught up in what is happening in our own world that we forget the big picture.  We get caught up in the But Ifs, the What Ifs, the Buts, and the If Onlys.  Everything that is important to us and is meaningful is right there in front of us to grab and hold onto in these times.  Sometimes, mornings like mine are there to remind us to slow down and take a look at where our thoughts are taking us.  It’s not about smooth sailing all of the time or having perfect lives where nothing goes wrong.  It’s about love, period.

The last stanza says it all.  Pay attention!

If you could be anywhere that you wanted to be
With anyone that you wanted to be with
Do anything that you wanted to do
What would it be and who would it be with you
Time flies but you’re the pilot
It moves real fast but you’re the driver
You may crash and burn sometimes

You are the driver – you are the pilot!  What are you going to do?  Crash and burn and stay down?  Or are you going to get back up again and go beyond!

This is why we fall down
And get back up again
This is where the heart lies
This is from above
Love is this, this is love

Lyrics:
It’s in the eyes of the children
As they leave for the very first time
And it’s in the heart of a soldier
As he takes a bullet on the frontline
It’s in the face of a mother
As she takes the force of a blow
And it’s in the hands of the father yeah
As he works his fingers to the bone

I’m standing under a white flag oh
Can you see me oh
Can you see me oh
I’m standing for everything we have oh
Can you hear me oh
Can you hear me oh

This is why we do it
This is worth the pain
This is why we fall down
And get back up again
This is where the heart lies
This is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it
Love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down
And get back up again
Love is where the heart lies
Love is from above
Love is this, this is love

It’s in the soul of a city
What it does after it crumbles and burns
And it’s in the blood of a hero
To know where he goes he may never return

This is why we do it
This is worth the pain
This is why we bow down
This is why we fall down
This is where the heart lies
This is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it
Love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down
And get back up again
Love is where the heart lies
Love is from above
Love is this, this is love

If you could be anywhere that you wanted to be
With anyone that you wanted to be with
Do anything that you wanted to do
What would it be and who would it be with you
Time flies but you’re the pilot
It moves real fast but you’re the driver
You may crash and burn sometimes

This is why we do it
This is worth the pain
This is where we bow down
This is where we fall down
This is where the heart lies
This is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it
Love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down
And get back up again
Love is where the heart lies
Love is from above
Love is this, this is love

Get back up and Love already!