I Forgot to Change the Oil!

23 Apr 2015 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , ,

Funny how things change! You think you have your life mapped out, all routes considered, landmarks noted, mileage calculated. Then, BAM! In the blink of an eye, someone threw the map out the window!

After my knee replacement, I had everything worked out. I would begin my writing career full time, begin editing for other authors full time, finish my degree, and leave working with special needs adults.

The brakes hit, and I came to a screeching halt. Circumstances being what they are, I cannot leave my job. The time I expected to have to finish my book and finish my poetry anthologies, take on more editing clients was thrown out the window along with the map I had so meticulously crafted.

The old arrival date is no more, and I no longer have even an estimated time of arrival. Oh, I’m not complaining. Well, maybe a little. I know that everything happens in its right and perfect time. I thought I was expecting my time to be the right and perfect time.

So, we all know the Law of Attraction. If you don’t, you must have been hiding your head in the sand. You know, you create what you expect? And vice versa, you create what you fear. Yeah, we all know that. Sometimes, what we consciously think we are expecting is in direct opposition to what we subconsciously “know.” That’s my case. Although, I consciously believed that I would be firmly established enough in my new writing and editing career, subconsciously, I knew it wasn’t time yet.

I still have a way to go. First of all, I forgot to do the oil change and change the tires. There are certain things that have to be done while I am setting my mind on the outcome I desire. You see, just because I’ve set my desire does not mean it is right timing.

Here’s the deal. I am still in school and won’t graduate until September. In these final classes, intense work is expected. I am not sure the extra work would be overwhelming and put me into a tailspin upon leaving the gate. I have to concentrate on completing that degree. Once done, I have changed the oil and changed the tires, and I am good to go.

Until then? I continue to write as often as I can. I continue to edit the few authors I have taken on. And I continue to do what needs to be done to pay my bills. Remembering all the while that I have created a new map that includes the twists and turns – even a scenic route here and there.

I’m on my way to creating the most amazing life I could imagine, and all in its right and perfect timing.

The Great But If

03 Feb 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , ,

Music Muse of the Day – One Thing by Alicia Keys

Music Link – http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/aliciakeys/onething.html

http://youtu.be/5zeGB_maNKo

There is something to be said when we have expectations of others that are not met.  Have we set our expectations too high?  Have we made our expectations known?  Are we so intent on having our own expectations met that we ignore those that belong to others around us?

These are questions that are brought up with today’s music muse.  Expectations.  It has been said that when we speak our intentions, we set our expectations such that there is no compromise.  But, often, it seems that compromise becomes the reality rather than what we thought we had intended.  It is then that we must ask ourselves if we really held our intentions with expectation or was there a But If?

What is a But If?  We are taught that when we set our intentions, we state clearly, specifically, and in the present.  We state I am, I know, I have statements – not I wish, I will, I am going to statements.  Now, here is the mind wiggle.  How often have we said, “I know I have ________!”

And deep down in our heart of hearts, we actually say, “I know I have ______, But If I can’t have ________, then I’ll take __________.”  You fill in the blanks.  The song says, “I’ll take one thing over everything.”  That is the huge But If!

We should never settle for the big But If.  If you want something in your life, own it.  State it without a But If.  State it fully knowing what you want and create the events in your life to bring about your intent without a But If.  Those But Ifs get in the way of creating our successes, our joy, our bliss, our happiness.  Continue enough of those But Ifs, and soon that is what you have – compromised joy, compromised bliss, compromised life.

Don’t get caught up in your story either.  We create these stories about why we do not have what we truly desire.  My stories have gotten in the way of my receiving so many times, and I have compromised and accepted big But Ifs.  The reminders are always there – just outside the reach, and leaving behind the But If and embracing I Am creates exactly what is the most amazing and brilliant part of me and my Self.

Leave those But Ifs behind and move into Or Better.  Do not compromise on your intents, and be open to the gifts waiting for you.  Be a true co-creator with Source.  There are no But Ifs allowed here!

Please Be Gentle With Me!

22 Mar 2011 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , , , , , , ,

Has it already been almost a month since my last blog?  It is mind boggling how much has happened in the past few weeks.

One lesson I have learned is that I manifest my thoughts much faster these days.  So, my new mantra?  Please be gentle!

Since the end of February, I’ve gone through financial chaos, physical chaos, and emotional chaos.  Why?  Did I really ask for these things?  Actually, yes I did!  It is important to remember that our thoughts create our lives – both good and bad depending on perception.  Ah, but there really is not a good or bad, is there?  Again, depends on perception.  For instance, let’s talk about financial chaos first.  I have been receiving messages for the past year that it is time to move forward from being a massage therapist into an integrated counselor, teacher, and Lightworker.  I knew that it was certainly the time to move to what I was being called to do in my heart.  And . . . I kept letting Universe know that I knew it was time.  Of course, my logical self – ego – felt that it would happen the way It – my ego – wanted.  But my spiritual self and my connection to Source had already made the Universal order.  So, the wheels were set in motion.  And, I didn’t listen very well – even when my professional life became the classic Tower Card in a Tarot reading. I had the rug pulled right out from under me several times in the last months.  And still, I allowed my ego to go forward into the dark night.  All along, I continued to say, “I’m ready to make the change.”  So, here comes the 2×4 – the first one!  I was involved in a minor car accident that resulted in another whiplash for myself – rear end collision while we were stopped at a red light.  I had to cancel clients and some classes.  The x-rays showed slippage on a disc in my cervical spine, but, my gifted doctor also discovered a separation of the tendon that houses the ulnar/radial nerve in my left arm – exactly the hand that goes numb and gives pain after working on several – now a single – deep tissue client in a day.  I was to take it easy for a few weeks to heal.  Well, a girl has to make a living right?  So, I continued to see clients – icing and wearing a splint between clients.  Yeah, that should do it, huh?  So, another 2×4 – the flu!  Now, I hardly get sick and when I do, my immune system kicks in quickly.  Noooo, not this time.  Completely put me to bed!  So, I had to take time off.  Results?  Financial chaos – physical chaos – emotional chaos.  Spirit forcing me to take time.  So, I did – no choice, actually!

During this time, I have been undergoing tremendous internal spiritual processing.  It started when a mentor I trusted completely betrayed my trust on every level.  I was forced to go within and really search where I was going in my spiritual and professional life.  So, I took the time off to really ask Spirit to give me clarity and vision on my next steps.

I have been given such visions during this time.  Holy Mother has directly talked to me and shown me things.  I have met the dark side of my psyche and learned how important it is to integrate both the dark and light.  I have been shown how important it is to go within and really listen in silence to what I am being told.  She has given me insights into where my next steps are.  So now?

Well, I am in financial recovery and physical recovery and emotional recovery.  Spiritually, I really wasn’t in chaos – just needed to take time to listen better.  The physical and financial will take some time – not long, though.  I am a tremendous manifestor – of that I am sure!  My body is mending very nicely – I do have a way to go with my neck, but as my true voice is heard louder and clearer, that will mend as well.  Emotionally?  Well, I am always one for embracing my emotions as they come.  And that I do.  You see, by embracing my emotions I can really become the observer responding to situations instead of reacting.  This way, I work through events quicker and much healthier.  Spiritually – all I can say is that my path is clearer and my purpose and calling are clearer.  Of course, it is a journey and as my friend, Harmony, says, “It’s all about the journey!”  Sorry, my friend – I had to use it.  But it is well worth it.

As we move forward through this year and the changes that are coming, one constant remains!  We are not alone on this ride.  We have a full team of spiritual and physical allies to help us through.  One thing I ask my guides now is:

Please be gentle with me!

Blessings in Love and Light!

Gaia Renee

The 3-D Reality

16 Jan 2011 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , , ,

For the past few weeks, since the beginning of 2011 actually, I have been mired in the 3-D world with all of its muckiness and ugliness.  But here is thing – I realize that I created this myself.  This is what I contracted for – this is what I brought in so that I can truly see where I need to make adjustments for my own growth.  I asked for it – and it came full head on.

In 2004, I had two car accidents almost back to back.  As I was mending from the first, I was re-injured in the second.  Those that were around me, who I trusted, all recommended that I go to an attorney and sue.  I’ve never done that before and I saw really quickly that I really wasn’t wanting to continue.  But I did.  Finally, this past week, six years later, it came to final arbitration.  I saw first hand a small part of our legal and insurance system.  Now, keep in mind that I have been a customer of my insurance company for over 25 years and have paid an exorbitant amount of money with no claims until these accidents.  The other insured was under-insured, so  my attorney went for our company for our under-insured policy.  Of course, my insurance company did everything to not pay.  And, I have to say, their attorney did an outstanding job.  She is to be applauded for chewing up my attorney and spitting her out.  Needless to say, my attorney did not do her job and …. well, I’m still waiting for the outcome.  It was brutal and definitely not something I ever want to go through again.

Then there is the part of taking a real, long, hard look at my business and where I am going with it.  The economy has had a drastic input on my clientele and I’m not sure where it is going.  I have an amazing vision and know where I want it to go.  But visions don’t pay the bills.  I have put so much into Earth Touch Healing Arts – it’s my baby.  But, I know I have to grow farther than I have ever gone.  I have several opportunities.  Some will give me immediate financial funding and some will take more time.  As I find myself in the thick of 3-D, I am reminded that in order to rise above, I have to step out of myself and into the 4-D or even 5-D to see the larger picture.  Can I do that effectively?  That is another blog!