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For my Friend, Dr. Z. Budapest

16 Jan 2015 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: dancing naked, empowerment, Goddess, goddess spirituality, women, women's mysteries, Z Budapest

Meeting Z. Budapest online has been the greatest gifts I could have received from the Goddess. I have read her books and followed her story, even taught some of my groups using her wisdom. As I move into this year’s Solstice and dark makes way for the light, I am reminded of how much we are loved as women and fellow Goddesses.

Over the vernal equinox, I performed a Shekinah ritual asking Her to open the doors to realize my passion and to be able to offer services to whomever was in need. Since then, doors have opened wide, and Z and I connected through Facebook. So, this is where creation and birthing have taken place.

I am committed to serving Goddess by helping promote Z’s message. Women are hungry – women from all walks of life. They are confused and just realizing how feminism is more than protests and battling the patriarchal society. It is about embracing their beauty, their sacredness, their wonderment of being born woman with the sacred red threads of life from Goddess.

I am determined in the coming year to work hard to get this message out to women everywhere as I work with Z to promote her lifework. Goddess has brought us all together for a reason, and the more I see the fear and anger rising up against women and feminism, the more I know that the message is taking anchor in the core of those women that have led the way.

To this end, using the phenomenon of social media, I have created Z’s Power Team on Facebook. We have over 100 women that have joined in. We will work in partnership together as sisterhood to get the message out to other women about Z’s books and her message. By joining in this Power Team, women can let their voices be heard. The voices that have been held down for so long can now be loud and clear. We, as sisters, joined in the scarlet thread of Goddess womb life, can stand strong with those that have gone before us and enter into the new light from the womb of the Goddess. As we go forward, sisters from all over will join in our voices by helping this cause.

Under the Blood Moon ⓒ

08 Oct 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: Blood Moon, dancing naked, Goddess, heritage, Renee Harper-Vacek

I stand under the Blood Moon
Watching with humbled reverence,
She sends her embrace, her sweet tune
Of strength, love, beauty’s essence.

As I draw down the moon
Into my sacred, holy place,
She enters in sweet commune
And blesses my heart’s space.

Knowledge and understanding
She graciously imparts,
Her gifts, notwithstanding,
Open the hidden arts.

She raises her daughter in adoration,
Imbues Her sacred wisdom,
I offer complete devotion
And dance to Her entrancing rhythm.

Dancing Her dance of ecstatic vision,
She demands surrender of body inflamed
An age old ritual, ancient tradition,
Lifting me to Her celestial plane.

It is in my open devotion
She allows my hallowed pilgrimage,
I enter Her holy temple as Her chosen,
Beatified, this my birth heritage.

CReneeHW ⓒ 10 / 8 / 14

Meet Baubo!

19 May 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: Baubo, beauty, danciing naked, divine masculine, feminism, Goddess, sacred feminine, Sacredness, self value, self worth, spirituality, women's spirituality

Meet Baubo, the Belly Goddess! She is here to remind us that a woman’s sexuality is not a thing of obscenity and shame, but a powerful, creative, sacred place in which dreams are realized and created. We are all mothers that become impregnated with the seeds of our passions and dreams. We gestate those seeds and nurture them until they are ready to birth. Then we open wide and give birth to our fullness and our passions and our Beings!

We are Baubo, and in our bellies, we create, enjoy, and dance in wonderment at our beauty.

For centuries, we as women have been cast as seductresses and wanton creatures bent on the taking men down to a base level of beingness. It started with the story of Eve and has continued from there. The reality is that even Jesus loved women and held the women disciples in high regard, but men were jealous of our spiritual nature and our creative nature and continued the story of the evilness and dirtiness of women.

But the Sacredness of our own natures will not allow us to continue to believe that paradigm. Baubo reminds us of our beauty and that our sensuality is not dirty or base. Our value does not depend on what man says we are. Our value depends on what we know deep down inside. We are beautiful, nurturing, loving, and sensual. And we are good!

Join the Dance

02 Apr 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: birth, creation, dancing naked, empowerment, Goddess, Masculine Feminine aspect, Moon, Music of the Day, Sun, woman

Music of the Day – My God is the Sun by Queens of the Stone Age

Link to music/lyrics – http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/queensofthestoneage/mygodisthesun.html

Raw, power, energy – the Sun!

The Sun chases the dark away and brings light. The Sun illuminates the secrets that lie in the shadows. There is healing in the Sun. There is power in the Sun. There is untapped energy in the Sun. The Sun – the masculine power that can overtake the feminine, the Moon.

It is said that the moon is reflective of the sun, and technically that is very true; however, without the reflective power of the moon, the sun would be one dimensional. The Moon represents the Feminine aspect – the Sun is the Masculine aspect.

As a woman who honors and acknowledges the Goddess within her, I know that the Sun also holds Feminine qualities. Those qualities provide the passion, the fire for creativity. Without that fire, creativity cannot take place.

In my world, the Sun, besides representing the Masculine aspect, also represents the creative fire within a woman, and the Moon represents the shadow that is important for cooling and peace and the gestation for what is being created. The Moon is the womb where ideas and desires take root, are nurtured, are gestated before birthing. Out of the womb, the creation is birthed into the light where the Sun takes over with passion, fire, and healing energy. This is where the Sun and the Moon are as one – Masculine/Feminine aspects as one. The Moon needs the Sun just as much as the Sun needs the Moon. Both must have what the other offers to become the truth of their own aspects.

It is the perfect combination and synergy that both move together to create our passions and desires. It is the perfect combination and synergy that allow Feminine/Masculine to dance that most sacred dance. Dark and Light come together in the perfect cosmic dance that creates, incubates, and births the heart’s desires. Light and Dark join together to support and nurture the heart’s desires. Feminine/Masculine join together to heal the pain and hidden fears so that the creation came come into full fruition and realization.

What are your heart’s desires? Take what the Sun offers and allow the Moon to reflect the passions of your heart’s desires. Dance the Cosmic Dance of Lovers – the realization of Sun/Moon – Masculine/Feminine – Light/Dark – Dark/Light – Feminine/Masculine – Moon/Sun. Fire, Passion, Desire – it’s all a part of the Dance.

From the Ocean

17 Mar 2014 2 Comments

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: camille renee harper-wylde, feminine empowerment, Goddess, mermaid, Ocean, Renee, yemaya

Music of the Day – K’ai – Song of the Mermaid by Lisa Dancing Light

Link – https://play.spotify.com/artist/3BkSz15mFjDJYKI6YzOhTi

I am of the ocean – a child of Yamaya – a child of the water. As a child of the ocean and woman of the water, I sing my song today to those women before and those after who stand in their strength.

For the ocean is movable, strong, and powerful and yet invokes tenderness and love and nurturing. For it is of the water we are created, gestated, born and it is through water that we realize our tenderness and power.

From the ocean, we move. From the ocean, we stretch and move into what we are to become – in our fullness, our truth, our power. It is the waves of Momma Ocean that carry us to where we become – Our Selves.

Resting in Her Arms

05 Mar 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: Divine Feminine, divine mother, embrace, Goddess, love, truth, voice

Music of the Day – O Virridissima Virga – From the CD “Ancient Mother” by Robert Gass & On Wings of Song

Links – Track – http://www.virginmedia.com/music/browse/robert-gass-and-on-wings-of-song/songs/708454

Lyrics and Translation – www.billalves.com/scores/viridissima.pdf‎

Today is a day of quiet reflection, and it is much needed. O Virridissima Virga is an old piece that venerates the virgin mother, but for those of us that honor Goddess spirituality and the Divine Feminine aspect, it is a fitting song that honors the creative feminine – the beauty of feminine – the unconditional love of the purest of mother archetypes.

I feel I must start of by sharing that whenever I am at my most turbulent time energetically, psychically, and in my spirit, my body manifests the energy in the area that governs whatever emotion I am experiencing. Yep, as strange as that may sound to some of my readers (and I acknowledge that I may lose some of you here), I am an empathic soul that feels emotions deeply.

So, I was not surprised when this showed up in my playlist shuffle for the music of the day. There are many energies at play in my life right now and a couple of days ago, the thought in my mind, “I have no voice in my life” manifested in my throat. I starting losing my voice yesterday, and this morning, there is nothing but a whisper available. So, this is a huge reminder to be still, be quiet, and listen.

While the translation takes on a catholic energy, it is the Divine Mother that nourishes and heals. When I need healing and nourishment, I am reminded to rest in Her arms. For Her arms are my arms. My thoughts must be examined and healed to manifest my heart’s desire. But more than anything, it is that touch, caress, embrace of the Mother that heals. And so, I take today to embrace myself, care for myself, listen to myself, and love myself to absolute and complete health.

It is in this that I find my voice once again. It is in Her strength – my inner strength – that my power and trust are once again realized and manifested. So, I dedicate this day to myself. You should try it!

Shakti Energy

14 Feb 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: Divine Feminine, Divine Goddess, empowerment, Goddess, Kundalini, Sacred Masculine, Shakti

Music Muse – Lalitha Ashtotram by Craig Pruess and Ananda

Link to Music – http://youtu.be/iUQRmbzhFoo

First of all, I will explain a little about this music. It is a Hindu prayer to the Goddess Shakti. I am, frankly, sitting here writing this blog listening to the chant on my phone. I also am humbled that the Goddess choses to come at this moment of time.

First, Shakti is power and the divine force, so this is a most powerful chant to call in Her qualities on this particular day. She is the Divine Force called forth to devour those manifestations in our lives that would block our good and to restore balance. She is power and empowerment, the manifestation of the Divine Feminine creative power in the universe, the cosmic existence as well as liberation from what binds us. She is the Divine Mother Goddess from all creation manifests and exists.

So, that this comes to me this very day is so important and is a most welcome sign of what I need most in my life. It is most important for all women in our current world. As a woman who is creating that in her life that embodies the fullness of being Woman Empowered, Shakti is the most important presence.

When forces come at us that harm our psyche and threaten to recreate our value, worthiness, beauty into the exact opposites, Shakti, when called upon, breaks through, devours that “evil,” and brings us power to stand strong against those forces and say, “No! I am beauty! I am worthy! I am a most excellent creature! I choose to stand on these words today! I choose, with the power of Shakti, to stand tall and beautiful and empowered!”

I am not here to male bash today at all. I honor the Sacred Masculine in its manifestations. I call, however, the Divine Feminine to be strong and true. I call on all women to know that your beauty and value is not dependent upon the patriarchal point of view and values. Your beauty and value is yours alone to embrace, build, honor, and hold sacred. It is in your sensual nature that you come alive and where the Kundalini, Shakti, energy thrives. You are a beautiful creation. Remember that always!

And now, I’m going to listen to this chant in full. Know this day – I set my intention to learn the chant calling on Shakti to devour those forces that would make me, and you, feel less than and work with me, and you, to build and embrace our feminine Divine energy – Shakti Energy!

Beyond the Beyond

29 Jan 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: empowerment, Goddess, Lisa Dancing-Light, Ocean, Oh great wave, women, Yamaya

Music muse of the day – Oh Great Wave by Lisa Dancing Light

Unfortunately, there is no link other than to her website so I am including it. Lisa Dancing-Light is a beautiful spirit with an amazing voice. This particular song is not found on YouTube or in any other video source, but it is on one of her CDs. Here is the link – I recommend her to all of you out there. http://lisadancinglight.com/

And now the lyrics to Oh, Great Wave:

Oh, great wave.

Wash away, wash away my false space

Awaken from my sleep the radiant sun.

Touch me, touch me. I am once again

Beyond the beyond.

I am that I am.

Beyond the beyond! Interesting since just the other day the music muse was Gate, Gate speaking of the very same idea.

I love the ocean, and the music starts with the ocean wave. The sound carries me to a place deep inside that connects with Yemaya – Mother Ocean. The core of my spirit rides the great wave without fear and with a release of longing to be reconnected with the waters of life. For it is through the waters of life that I feel my power deep within. The core of the ocean wave is that it flows until it hits the shore, then crashes washing away the debris back to the mother for cleansing. There is a gentleness in the sound but such power in its force.

If I allow myself to float with the great wave of cleansing, will I become lost in its power? Or will I come to the space of radiance and truth? Cleansing my false space, my secret yearnings that have yet to be created and manifested, She touches me with the great wave. I am pulled from the shore of uncertainty and carried away in Her power and force to be transported back to the Mother – Yemaya – and cleansed. She touches me in a way that awakens me inside and awakens the radiant sun to shine on my own worthiness and my own I Am-ness. I am carried “beyond the beyond” to a place of Being that is my radiance. I am awakened.

I am reminded that I am a part of Her – and through that rejoining, I reclaim my own power and strength. I now reclaim my own I Am-ness. I stand strong and proud as a woman – beyond the beyond!

Don’t Hold Me Down

23 Jan 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in All About Me, My Thoughts Exactly Tags: empowerment, Goddess, music, music muse, standing strong, women, Women's Power

Today’s music muse – Don’t Hold Me Down by Colbie Caillet

Link to the song: http://youtu.be/d3zLCKaEfb0

When I opened this song this morning, my first thought was “Wow”! It felt that Colbie was in my head and my heart. The first stanza says,

I’m just so tired of these troubles that I try to hide.
Makes me wanna wash away my whole world inside.
I think it’s time that I make changes in the things I do.
This weight on my chest I am ready to loose.

I have been in the process of making “changes in the things I do” for several years, and there are times when I feel as if I am in a hamster cage running around and around in circles going nowhere. I have kept my real feelings hidden for a very long time – wanting to make changes, yet not sure how. Not being one to shy away from a fight, I go round after round pulling myself to a new place. Sometimes, it is a good place, and sometimes, it feels unsafe and toxic. It is those times that weigh me down for a while until I break away. Over time, the weight of the struggle and battle feels too much, so I hide. My mother-in-law had a saying that fits here. “I just keep putting one foot in front of the other.” Wait, it gets better!

Second stanza:

I have been rocking back and forth across the line.
Hanging for a moment on the wrong side.
Now I’m standing up, I think I’ll be here for a while.
Hope I remember how to keep on this steady smile.

“I have been rocking back and forth across the line – hanging for a moment on the wrong side.” So, all I can say is, “That!” I’ve been on the wrong side often trying to crawl out of self-dug holes. I’m at the edge, standing up and standing strong. That steady smile? I smile because I am standing up! And now for the chorus:

Don’t hold me down.
Oh, I was getting so far.
Don’t hold me down.
Cause I don’t wanna fall apart.
Don’t hold me down.
You see me waking up and feel it now.
I’m breaking down and nothing’s gonna stop me now.

We do get in our own way, don’t we? Often, it is easy to blame the people in our lives, but in the end, it is up to our own selves. If someone else gets in the way or holds us down, it is because we allow it. We can wake up and say no to ourselves. Say yes to be strong and speak your voice. What do you want to break through? Are you ready to wake up? It is that waking up process that breaks down the walls and obstacles and lets us soar. Finally,

I know I’m gonna fight it.
I’m tired of being blinded.
So….

I won’t hold me down.
Oh, I wanna go so far.
I won’t hold me down.
I don’t wanna fall apart.
Don’t hold me down.
You see you’re waking up and feel it now.
I’m breaking down and nothing’s gonna stop me now.

No, no.
Nothing’s gonna stop me now.

Saying, “I know I’m gonna fight it” seems like a self-prophecy, but we are, after all, human. And when we move out of our comfort zones, it is our nature to fight it – even if that comfort zone is not a good place. But making the statement, “I won’t hold me down,” and “Nothings gonna stop me now” is a ground breaking step. Don’t hold yourself down! “You see you’re waking up and feel it now!” Wake up!

“I’m breaking down and nothings gonna stop me now!”

Welcome to the World

13 Nov 2013 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly, Self Growth Tags: daughter, elderwoman, Goddess, granddaughter, sisterhood

On Tuesday, November 12, 2013, I witnessed a miracle. That’s right! 11/12/13 – now the birthday of my first granddaughter, Teagan Noelle Tashinian – TNT! And she is most definitely a little firecracker!

I was there from almost the very start to the very finish of this amazing birth, and I am so grateful that I could watch this beautiful baby girl make her entrance into this crazy world of ours. This is not my only grandchild; I have a 13-year-old step grandson and a six-year-old grandson. I was there from the very start to the almost finish of my grandson, and would have been there through the very end, had it not been for an emergency C-section. But I was there for him and my youngest daughter as well, and am very grateful for that.

Teagan is the new daughter of my eldest daughter who experienced fertility issues just as I. She experienced the creation of two other babies only to have them leave early in the pregnancies. She and her husband (who I love very much) have waited for three years for Teagan. I and my husband waited for six years and experienced a couple of miscarriages which were very early in the terms. So, I have been down this agonizing road with her and given her what bit of wisdom I could. It is difficult for anyone to understand how painful it is when a woman wants a child so much and is not able to do what women were created to do. So, I am glad that I was there for that for her.

This pregnancy has been one of those in which we all held our breath not sure if it would “take.” But Teagan was determined, and here she is. Watching that little life emerge from my eldest daughter with my youngest daughter, her sister, coaching her and being her rock, and my son-in-law being the vigilant protector was one of the most gratifying and humbling experiences I have had. The three of us are and have been close, and to continue as Teagan made her appearance only solidified our bond as mother – daughters – and now granddaughter. That is something that, as women, is stronger than steel. Nothing can break it.

So, I thank Goddess in her wisdom for Her part in this because Teagan’s birthday, 11/12/13, is an auspicious date. Her birth time of 12:25 is equally important. She is a Scorpio and a needed balance to the womanhood of our family. We now have two fire signs and two water signs. Teagan is inheriting a long standing tradition from my side of the family just as her male cousin inherited. I gladly take on the role of Elderwoman in training these two amazing souls in the ways of my ancestors. My grandson has shown signs since his birth as is Teagan. But that’s for another blog.

Welcome to our family, Teagan!