Brand New Kind of Me!

22 Jul 2014 6 Comments

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , , , , ,

This week’s music – Brand New Me by Alicia Keyes

Music/lyrics link – http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/aliciakeys/brandnewme.html

Today, I could just copy and paste the lyrics, and my blog would be complete. It has been awhile since my last blog post because, you see, I am about to step forward in a new way.

As I write this, I am preparing for a total knee replacement tomorrow. For me, this is just the culmination of the evolution I have been experiencing the past year. It started with the internal, emotional, mental side of me, and as I opened more and stepped out of the fear, my physical body began its response.

First it was the neck surgery in October that released the blockage in my throat and eye chakras. I began to see and speak with greater clarity.

And now, I prepare today for a total knee replacement this morning – the final step of moving forward! I become a Brand New Me!

Fear no longer has a place in my decision making process. Fear is no longer an infinite wall blocking me from going to a place where I know I belong. The word Fear is now changed to a new meaning.

F – Forward

E – Energy

A – Anticipating

R – Results

I speak boldly! I speak strong! My actions are sure and steady. And if it seems there is a miss step, it is only a tool to realize my greatest potential.

I am a Brand New Kind of Me!

Let the Thing Go!

03 Apr 2014 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , , , , , , , ,

Music of the Day – Daylight by Maroon 5

Link to music/lyrics – http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/maroon5/daylight.html

Truth time! And you have to be perfectly honest with yourself here – I am! Even though this song is about a break up between two lovers, the energy of the song reminds me of how we hold onto those things/events/stories that no longer serve us and bring us pain. Yeah, we get so caught up in our stories and attachments that we just don’t want to let go.

Examining our attachments to thing/event/stories shows us just how much we rely on the story behind them and just how much we create a perfection about them. We get so caught up in the victim/it’s their fault story that we don’t see how much these thought processes are holding us back from realizing our greatness/awesomeness!

And when we see, really see, just how destructive this story is, we still want to hold on just a bit longer – just one more day. Why? Because this Thing has become a part of our own story and we are attached to it thinking that without it, we just cannot exist. There is a stanza in the song that says:

I never want it to stop
Because I don’t wanna start all over
Start all over
I was afraid of the dark
But now it’s all that I want
All that I want, all that I want

Isn’t that what is so scary about letting this Thing go? Starting over – recreating ourselves – realizing our own self-worth, self-value, self-love without the story surrounding the Thing! Yeah, it’s a scary place to face. And as long as we stay in the darkness of the Thing/Story, we feel safe! We do not want the daylight to come because then we have to really face letting go of the Thing/Story. And yet, we know it is inevitable that we face the Thing and finally let it go – release it.
And so, we hold on just for a bit longer to make sure that we are ready, “Cause in the daylight we’ll be on our own!” Are you ready to be on your own without the Thing/Story? I know I am!

 

Nothing to Lose

07 Feb 2014 Leave a comment

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Music Muse of the Day – Smooth Sailing by Queens of the Stone Age

Link to YouTube video with lyrics – http://youtu.be/A10nXyxckAE

Link to Lyrics – http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/queensofthestoneage/smoothsailing.html

Hard, raw, edgy, and ready to move forward leaving the old bonds and mindsets that get in the way of really living – not just existing in a world in which we are and act as we think we are supposed to.  That is where this is taking you, the reader, and me, the writer, today.

When I first opened my playlist, I really was not sure what would appear.  My emotions this morning are so raw and edgy.  The first song that came up spoke to me, but not in a way that I could share with my readers.  The message was one that was superficial and was the tip of the iceberg that only is seen by the naked eye and had nothing to do with what was the enormity beneath the surface.  So, I paused, took a deep breath, and dove in.

I have an affinity for the ocean – cannot swim in it, but the need to be by or close to the ocean is so strong inside of me that to think of being anywhere else puts me in a place of sadness.  Writing this, I consider what it means to me.  I have a water phobia.  I love being there, but cannot get in.  It is not what I see – it is what I cannot see – the unknown – the fear of the power behind it.

Fear of the unknown is debilitating and will keep us from going forward, even when we know that is the right action.  Fear – all encompassing and all devastating.  We sit in our comfortable little worlds built on what we were programmed to do and be wanting more – wanting to do more – wanting to be more, while we watch the world go by us – paralyzed in our own fear of the unknown and of becoming our truth.  We become that which we despise – the status quo.

Are you ready to know what Fear really is?  Read this stanza:

Fear is the hand
That pulls your strings
A useless toy
Pitiful plaything

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That’s all it is.  “A useless toy – pitiful plaything.”  There are times in our lives that we are forced to look deep inside – this is the time for me and for you, if you are reading this.  We look deep inside without fear of what we will find.  Instead, we look deep inside for where our own healing can take place.  Open – stay open!  Do not let fear pull your string any longer! And what you find, if you truly look and are ready to process, will destroy the bonds that fear has on your heart and life.

It’s all in motion
No stoppin’ now
I’ve got nothin’ to lose
And only one way up

Take the risk.  I know I am!  I know I want more!  I know that the status quo – the way “they” told me I was supposed to be – has nothing for me.  I has taken me a long time to get here, but here I am.  So, take the risk.  Take the chance.  You’ve got nothing to lose and everything to gain.