One of Those Days or Have the Havoc Gremlins Been Visiting?

01 Dec 2011 Leave a comment

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , , ,

Perhaps it would better saying that it has been one of those weeks – one of those days just doesn’t work.  You know what I mean.  It seems that no matter what energy you feel is being sent out, chaos just seems to follow.  I think that there are these little beings out there called havoc gremlins that, once invited in, wreak havoc on our lives.   And we are responsible for inviting them in. This week would seem to be one of those weeks for me.  So, let’s look at the laundry list, so to speak. 

Monday started out just great, actually.  We have been a one car family for a couple of years.  It was very acceptable until my husband got a job.  Then things became complicated, so we put in our order for a really great car, no car payments, and one that we would love driving.  Now. keep in mind that I was thinking a newer hatchback with great fuel economy.  I’m not sure what my husband was thinking about, but I think it was more generic.  He was orderiing a great meal with all the trimmings and better.  I was ordering a red newer hatchback with great fuel economy and no car payments.  He won!  He found a beautiful 1988 Volvo Bertone, low mileage, all the trimmings – a true classic.  When he told me about it, he proudly exclaimed that these 2 two door Volvo coups were designed in 1988 by an Italian named Bertone and that there were only 5,000 made.  I could see the excitement in his eyes, so I looked at it.  It’s a nice car in spite of its age, and looks like it was really babied.  It is a great car at a great price – good fuel economy, low mileage (102,000), aand no car payments.  I have to add something about the price here – my husband is doing handman work for the owner for complete trade.  Yep!  The cost of the car is his labor and the DMV registration.  He did some pretty amazing manifesting on this one!  We picked it up on Monday, so Monday was a great day.  With the new car, I also received my early Christmas present of an Android Tablet.  So far, so good, right?

Tuesday?  Well, that’s when things started jumping.  I went in for my first client and there was a stench in the Center that was absolutely past the point of disgusting.  My first client cancelled all of her appointments for the month of December.  I had to cancel my second client of the day due to no one to take care of my grandson.  My third client was late so I didn’t get home until very late.  That evening, I received an email from my university that I had to take an English Profiency Exam because my college credits are over 5 years old.  Now, I am already in my first class and scoring 100% on all of my papers.  I have a week to take it or I have to repeat English Comp I and II.  Quick email was sent out to my advisor with a very direct statement, of course.

Wednesday?  With more cancellations for the month, my private practice looks pretty grim right now.  Thank Universe I have work at the Center in Concord.  We switched to U-Verse for our internet service and the install was to be done this evening.   I started taking the exam and, Boom!  Our DSL was shut off early.  At the appropriate time, I installed the U-Verse modem.  You guessed it!  It didn’t work.  2 hours on the phone resolved nothing.  I would have to wait until the next morning for a technician.

Thursday?  My clients at the Center were scheduled back to back, so I received no break or lunch.  When I went out to my car to leave, a little note was taped on my window that instructed me to park somewhere else in the future.  Of course, my car had been parked all day in the same spot at the Center.  The Director had seen it and me numerous times during the day, and the Assistant Director had pointed out the space to park.  I got a note taped to my car window.  When I got home, internet was up and running.  Yay!  But my husband was not happy.  I still don’t know what that was about, except I did make a statement when I found the new modem on my Isis altar with some of my altar items moved to the side haphazardly.  Could that have been it?

So, see what I mean?  I don’t remember putting out that kind of energy, but in my world, we are responsible for our lives.  I look at my own energy to see what is being reflected because I know that I have to be putting something out there.  When we are faced with these little twists and turns, we have to look at the simplicity of what we are holding.  Do we get so bogged down in the junk that we perpetuate it?  Do we invite more havoc gremlins into our lives because we stay in the quagmire?  The more we focus on those little things that throw boulders where pebbles should be, the more those pebbles grow into mountains.   If you are experiencing those havoc gremlins, you can send them packing.  Instead of focusing on the chaos in your life, start focusing on those things to show gratitude.  Mine? I have my own car again and it’s a beauty.  I have named her Sophie.  I have internet back on and it’s faster that ever.  I am writing this blog on my new table that docks into a keyboard.  I have a life purpose and am grateful for the knowledge that I am living it. 

Friday?  I know it is already the best day ever!

Been Gone Too Long

21 Nov 2011 2 Comments

by Camille in My Thoughts Exactly Tags: , , , ,

I can’t believe that it’s really been since August since my last blog post.  One thing that can be said about my life is that it is always changing.  In writing that, I know that I need to change that experience if I want my life to chill for a while.  But, I’m good with change, for it is through change that we grow the most and become our true selves.

It seems that days, weeks, and months fly by, and before I realize it, several months have gone by.  My past experience has been that things are always busy.  And they have been.  Busy is not necessarily bad – it’s now we react to that busy-ness.  It is how we believe that busy-ness.  Perhaps we see it as overwhelming, but one thing for sure is that we are living!

Life just is – to be experienced, lived, participated in, and shared.  I have learned many insights and grown exponentially.  I am living life as a fully active participant – not standing by and watching.  My intention is to share with my readers my experiences in the coming year so that we may walk this path together.  It is important to share my new quest path.  Why?  I know that many of you out there experience challenges and what could be perceived as setbacks.  I will share mine with you.  One thing about setbacks – they are not!  We may think that losing that job, losing that client, having to experience something that you thought was long gone are setbacks.  But, they are merely events that have occurred so that you can master a lesson.  These are amazing opportunities to grow and provide challenges to be what we desire to be.  So, the next time you feel slapped in the face with yet another “setback,” give it a smile.  Write it down.  Record your emotions surrounding this event.  Embrace those emotions.  Ask yourself one important question – what does the solution to this event look like?  Journal about it!  And this is important!  Allow for your process – don’t be self-critical and do NOT play the blame game.  Just process and allow yourself to grow with it.  That doesn’t mean you have to like it!  Grow with it!

So, where have I been the past few months?  Working at my new work, seeing clients at Earth Touch that I desire to see, preparing for 11:11:11, and being me being wife, mother, grandmother, and sister.  And to top that all off – I made the decision to go back to college to get that degree.  College is a life long dream of mine, and now I am living that dream.  I will say that it is a challenge to integrate my study time with work, family, and play time.  I am finding that I a lot smarter than I thought I was and I can write!  Fancy that!

I am living my life.  Sometimes, it’s not so pretty, but it’s my life.  I have had people say to me that there is always something going on in my life, and they are right.  Funny, though, I don’t think they are meaning that as a compliment.  Frankly, I have learned not to care about that.  There will be those naysayers that try to undermine growth and learning.  So, I let them have their say and smile to myself inside.  I am good with that.  I know where I desire to go.  I have created a map to get there.  And I have embarked on this journey with my eyes wide open.  I am ready to take that next step.  Are you ready to join me?  Fasten your seat belts – you are stepping onto my ride now!