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Inner Chaos in a Sea of Calm

01 Jun 2012 Leave a comment

by Camille in All About Me Tags: abstract art, art, breaking free, chaos, free, Goddess, painting, spirituality

I survived my first critique of Art class last night. My mom was a painter and a very gifted one at that. She tried her best to teach me, but she was a realist. Her rules of light and shadow were strict, and she was a strict painter. She finally gave up me because I just did not get the rules. Oh, I understood how light and shadow work, I just wanted to do things a little differently. Even as a young girl, I saw the essence and emotion of painting and life.

That is what has opened for me through this class. This is my first real art class, and I am a painter! Yay! The class is in abstract painting class. We are working through the four elements in according to alchemy. Last night we dove into air. Our teacher purposely went out of order, so it has been a bit strange for me. But, then I remembered that there are no rules. We work from where we need to work at any given moment of time. That has been the most difficult lesson for me to learn.

Getting back to the critique, what stood out for myself and the others in the class is that each of my paintings as I worked through each element exhibits a theme. The theme of inner chaos with calm surrounding the chaos. As I listened to each critique of my work, it became clear that I am in the middle of this theme. My teacher made an amazing comment, “Isn’t it time to let yourself break free? You have this inner passion that is screaming to break out, yet you keep the facade of control and calm ongoing. That is obvious in your work. I would like to see you through some ritual release and break free. Keep painting – this is your medium.” Wow!

There is some fear of this, but I can feel it coming through. I see the theme of inner chaos in a sea of calm throughout the last few years. And it is time to break free!

Moving On

31 May 2012 Leave a comment

by Camille in All About Me

Moving On

31 May 2012 Leave a comment

by Camille in All About Me Tags: Children, graduation day, maturity, moving on

I have had the distinct pleasure of taking my niece and nephew and a friend’s daughter to school every morning for the last few months. While it added to my morning chaotic routine, it has been enlightening and fun. My niece is currently a sixth grader, my nephew a seventh grader, and my friend’s daughter an eighth grader.

It has been fun watching them grow and mature in middle school. There is one more morning – tomorrow. Today is the last day of escorting the eighth grader to school, and today is her eighth grade graduation day. She was beautiful and glowing this morning.

All three were discussing their hopes for next year’s teachers with the eighth grader giving sage wisdom on the best teachers for my nephew. My nephew giving sage wisdom for my niece. The conversation ran from, “Hope for Mr. Hafernan. You don’t want Mrs. Smith – she’s hard and she’s mean” to “Yeah, but Mrs. Smith doesn’t give book reports.”

As they left the car, the excitement of graduation, moving up to eighth grade, and moving up to seventh grade became a reality for all three. There was no retrieving backpacks from the trunk, just the closing of the car door with me waving “Have a great day!” The eighth grader turned and smiled, and said, “Thank you!”

They are all three moving on!

On Memorial Day

28 May 2012 Leave a comment

by Camille in All About Me Tags: middle-east

As I woke this morning and reflected on Memorial Day and what it really means to me, I realized that I have very conflicting emotions surrounding the intention of the day. On the surface, Memorial Day is a day for honoring those brave men and women that defend our country from those that would destroy us and our way of life. That is on the surface. Internally, I feel much different about the day and what it stands for.

First of all, let me point out that I have many male relatives that served our country. My paternal grandfather served in the Army in WWI. One of my distant paternal ancestors that shows up on our family tree is the one and only “Give me liberty or give me death” Patrick Henry. My father-in-law served in the Army during WWII and was involved in the invasion of Normandy campaign. My brother-in-law served in the Navy with two tours in Vietnam on a PT boat in the Mekong Delta – he still does not talk about his experiences there. My husband served during peace time in the Navy. My brother served in the Navy and was on the ship that fired the first tomahawk missiles in the Iraq war – he retired two years ago. So, you see, my male family members are very much ensconced in serving our country.

Now, to get to what Memorial Day means to me. So many of our sons and daughters have lost their lives in current campaigns aimed at ending terrorism and for striking back at Al-Qaeda and those that killed so many on our own shores. I am saddened when I think of those in the World Trade Center that lost their lives senselessly over what – bullying? Because that is what terrorism is all about. We went to war in Iraq because we were sure there were weapons of mass destruction when we became the weapon ourselves. We went to war in Afghanistan because we believed that the entire country supported and protected Osama Bin Laden and his terrorist bullies. It wasn’t the entire country, but fundamentalists that believe their cause is just. We also believe that our cause is just.

We live in an era when on our own home soil fundamentalists and far right wing conservatives are passing laws taking away human rights while protecting the wealthy corporations. Those that cannot take care of themselves are the ones that are suffering. I see laws proposed and passed by the conservatives and Tea Party members that purport to be against big government, yet the very laws they want passed are the epitome of big government taking away basic human rights. The idealogy is that the few are served by the many – and all means necessary to fund wars that fulfill corporate profits are proposed and acted on while the poor, the unemployed, the elderly, the children, and the women in our country must go without. Isn’t that what we rail against when we, in our indignation, scream about human rights in the Middle East, Africa, China, and North Korea?

Don’t get me wrong – I have always been proud to be American and proud that my ancestral lines reach back to Patrick Henry. My maternal ancestral lines reach back to Quanah Parker, a Comanche chief, that fought to his dying breath those white Europeans that took his land, his mother, killed his father, and murdered his people in the name of religion and profit. Is not that what we rail against now with the Middle East, Africa, China, and North Korea?

So, today, as I remember those men and women that have fought for our liberties and our freedoms on foreign shores believing in a country that was founded on liberty and freedom – for all, I hold them dear and send a prayer for peace and understanding and a true end to terrorism and bullying – even from our own country. As I remember those that have died for a belief and for their people and their land – the American Indians, the African Americans, the Latinos, the Chinese Americans, the Japanese Americans, to name a few – I remember what they all have been fighting for. In my ancestor’s famous words, “Give me liberty or give me death.”

Dancing Naked

02 May 2012 Leave a comment

by Camille in All About Me

I read an amazing book in the last few weeks that impacted me so greatly and opened my eyes to my heart song that I had to change the name of my blog to reflect my “Aha” moment. I took the mantra that you see so often here last year – “Authentic, Joyful, Bodacious – With No Apologies.” And I still live that mantra. Well, I do apologize sometimes, but never for being me. I admit that up to the point that I finished the book by Kris Radish, “Dancing Naked at the Edge of Dawn,” I did not fully realize the scope of the mantra. I highly recommend the book. It will change your outlook at women and how we are.

That being said – I realized that I have a tremendous calling and passion as an activist for women’s issues. The current political environment has opened the channels to that passion, and has brought me to a place in which there is no turning back. In order to protect the innocent, namely my direct family and those friends that wish to remain on the fence, I am writing this blog now with my soon to be legal name. I have made the choice, and I am standing strong.

No longer can I just sit back and read what is happening to Women’s Rights. I not only will be blogging my own political views and opinions, but I will be blogging how the challenge is affecting myself as well. It is important that we, as women, join together in true sisterhood to say, “No! We will not go back to keeping quiet and being perfect little ladies.” We, as a race, have fought long and hard to be heard. We cannot stop speaking our truth now. So, I offer myself up to the Goddess as an advocate, activist, and speaker of truth.

As we all know, the more the Sacred Feminine makes Her presence known, the more the Unholy Masculine will fight to squelch Her. Yes, you read right – Unholy Masculine. Those are the words and title that seem appropriate here. There are men out there – my husband is one – that believe as we do. Women should be held in equal status in all areas. He honors the sacredness of the Feminine and sees all women as his equal – not better, not worse, but equal. That is how we raised our daughters, and that is how we both will continue to influence our grandsons and any future grandchildren.

Fasten your seat belts! I am truly Dancing Naked – Authentic, Joyful, Bodacious – With No Apologies!

The Three Levels of Speech

22 Jan 2011 2 Comments

by Camille in All About Me, Growth and Ascension Tags: Ascension, Growth, Guides, love, Sout Team, Sufi

Greetings in Light!

I was sitting on my sofa early this morning, cup of coffee in hand, and laptop on the arm of the sofa. As I was watching the sunrise – my front window faces east – I enjoyed the quiet silence. This is my favorite time of the day. All are asleep, the world is in that hush place. I hear the soft breathing of my family and at this time of the morning, all is well!

In these early morning hours, I use this time to connect with my Soul Team and Guides and ask them to assist me in this process of living in the 3D world. I closed my eyes and listened. I was surprised when I was told to open the laptop and go on Facebook. “Really?” I said. I, frankly, was expecting some other kind of message. But, I followed the message and opened the laptop to Facebook. I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to find there, so I starting surfing postings by people I know, people I don’t know, and other various groups. I saw posts of shared loved – some dear friends of mine just exchanged rings. I saw posts of anger. I saw posts from all kinds of people in all forms and fashions. I was led to a page that led me to a Sufi website.

I have not explored this spiritual path of Sufism. I have a beautiful client and friend whose parents were Sufi and she was raised as a Sufi. Her parents have transitioned over, but I remember the calm and peace they always carried and the love that they shared with each other. I also remember that they seemed to have a beautiful radiant light about them that wasn’t present in others. My friend doesn’t really practice much now, but still holds to the teachings. I have not explored much in this belief, but recognized it as one that seems to bring peace and calm to those that practice it. This isn’t my first exposure to Sufism. The 7-11 down the street is owned by a beautiful family that has asked me time and again if I have heard of Sufism. I shy away from organized religions, so I politely said yes and went on my way. But, here this page was right in my face. So, I started reading.

I have had challenges and patterns that crop up now and then dealing with communication – particularly in standing up for myself and speaking my truth. And, I have been attempting to navigate this whole process since it seems that it has come up for me in a large way lately. It’s been so painful, but yet, I feel I am in my Truth and I know that it is part of my growth and Ascension process – a lesson that has to be mastered here in this life.

Well, here is what I found. I love Spirit – She opens my eyes to what I need to know and understand. I will share this with my students and have included this in a chapter of my new book. I hope it speaks to you the way it spoke to me.

“Speech is of three kinds: The first comes from the desire of the self; the second from reason and the third from love.

Speech which arises from desire is troubling and insipid, giving neither pleasure to those who speak, nor profit to those who listen.

That which arises from reason is accepted by the wise and gives pleasure to the listener and the speaker,

and speech that arises from love enraptures those who listen and those who speak.”

Excerpt from the Menaqib al-Arifin, words of Mevlana Rumi from The Stories of the Wise of the Mevlevi Tradition, #414.

I intend to read these words often and put them in my heart and share them with those that are around me.

Always in Love and Light,

Gaia Renee

Authentic – Juicy – Bodacious – with no apologies

31 Dec 2010 2 Comments

by Camille in All About Me Tags: 2011, Angels, Authentic, Create, emotions, love, Mantra, release, spirit, Vision

Greetings in Light!

It’s December 31st, 2010. This past year has gone by fast, but these holidays are gone before they settled in. Are you ready for 2011? I have to say for myself – YES! ABSOLUTELY!!

I had the pleasure to be with some amazing fellow travelers last night. We performed a fire ceremony releasing what we wanted gone and setting our vision for what we each desired to be created in 2011. I released some much needed situations that had brought pain, anger, and hurt and all of the emotions attached to them and made the determination to step out of that place. What did I set my vision on? Of course, there are the usual – love, prosperity, abundance. I added something, that for me is what I am about. I desire to embrace ME!! As we drummed our visions into being, we each spoke our mantra for the coming year. I spoke – “I AM!” And I most certainly AM!

So, now, I share my vision and mantra for 2011 with each of you. My vision is to be ME!!!! As I have done communions with the Angelic Realms and my Soul Team, I have realized how wonderful and amazing I am. Every step of my path has brought me to this very point of Being. I am truly grateful for my life thus far – even though at times I wasn’t too crazy about the experience at the time.

And my vision for each of you is for you to embrace the very Being of You. Embrace all of the parts – even those that may not seem constructive. Each part of you is there for a reason. Each emotion is a lesson that you are ready to master. Each emotion that you allow yourself to feel will bring you to a greater understanding of your Greatness. When you experience anger, you have the opportunity to face head on those buttons that trigger past memories that need to be released. Feel anger when it comes up. Embrace it – allow for the experience of understanding where it comes from. To release it – go out alone and scream it out. Go to a river, lake, or beach if you are close to one and throw rocks at it. Beat your pillow. When you are done, laugh!!! Humor and joy are the opposites of anger and need to be experienced as well. If you feel jealousy, embrace it. Ask what exactly it is that you need to experience so that you can release those deep feelings of – fear and lack. Laugh at yourself as you release the feeling of jealousy knowing that you have your own unique and wonderful gifts to share and that you are blessed in your own special way with what you are ready to receive. Do the same with any emotion that arises. Move into it – embrace it – feel it – question it – release it! If you find that you just can’t release it at the moment, it’s ok. You will when you are ready. Don’t beat yourself up with this. It’s your experience – no one else’s.

By stepping into your own Being, you can Be Yourself – authentic – juicy – bodacious – With No Apologies!

My mantra for 2011 – I Am Authentic – Juicy – Bodacious! I AM! With No Apologies!

Blessings in Light!

Gaia Renee

What Do I Need to Know

30 Dec 2010 Leave a comment

by Camille in All About Me

Greetings in Light,

I woke up this morning with the question on my mind, “What do I need to know today?” In the past few days, I was hit straight on – face forward – up front with feelings of “Does what I do really make a difference?” “Does what I have been given to share really matter?” “Why do I keep doing this – is this really worth it?” Yes, believe it or not, I have those same feelings too.

I have workshops and classes planned in January, but those have been cancelled and replaced with a colleague’s workshops. They are all powerful classes and important, so it was my choice. In planning the annual World Peace Meditation for tomorrow and sending out the invitations and notices that it is happening once again, another amazing group is having a ceremony tonight which will greatly impact attendance the meditation since it is at 4:00 am PST. I am still holding the meditation even if I am the only one there – it is a worldwide event that is so important, especially at this time of our planet’s evolution. But, it brought up my own inner dialogue. So, this morning, I asked the Sophia Council, “What do I need to know? Is what you ask me to do making a difference?” This is the message I was given,

“Our daughter, we have asked you to bring our message out to humanity. While it may not seem in your 3D world that this message is unique or that it is accepted or that it is important, it most definitely is. We would not ask you to share what we have given you if it wasn’t important. Where do you derive your measurement of importance? From the 3D humanity around you? That’s not an accurate measure. Those that are called to our message will come. We are asking you to move forward in your mission here. Yours is a mission of perseverance and persistence – of love and joy. Our message through you is a message of removing the masks of what humanity thinks it is supposed to be and being in the actuality of what truly is. So, you ask, What do you need to know? You need to know that you ARE.”

I AM! Wow, what powerful words. So, I continue to schedule the classes and meditations that They ask of me and I continue to teach what I have been given. I am moving forward to other venues and other locations. This area I have been working in has been a training ground. And I know it’s been worth it.

The World Peace Meditation will be held at 4:00 am tomorrow morning at Earth Touch in Benicia. I will hold my Shekinah Meditation Circles. I will teach and share what Great Mother Gaia and the Sophia Council have given me to share. And I do this gladly and with the knowledge that I AM!

Blessings in Light!

Gaia Renee

Reflections of 2010

28 Dec 2010 Leave a comment

by Camille in All About Me

Greetings in Light!

As I sit in my office this afternoon, I am reminded of the lessons learned, and mastered. 2010 was a year of gain and loss. But most of all, 2010 was a year of moving closer to my purpose. I wish to share some of what occurred in 2010 – not to stay in the past, but to be able to release those energies and move forward into 2011.

2010 brought in new friends and new students. Some of these friends were closer than I have experienced for a very long time. All of my new students were amazing. I felt so blessed to be able to teach these special people. My new friends brought such a level of authenticity in my life and for that I am very grateful. I realized what it means to really be my authentic self. I have taught about being authentic, but this past year, I was able to really experience that.

Understand, that with this lesson came great pain. While I am proud that I never compromised and lived to my own self-authenticity, I realized that there are very few people who can really embrace that notion and way of living. And that’s good. Because without those people in our lives, we would not be able to master that great lesson of life – being our true selves without apologies. When you have someone in your life that backs away from you because you are being yourself, then it is important to release them. They have mirrored something from their own lives into you – you have become their great lesson. It is not your responsibility to hold that for them. When my friends left my side with no explanation, I hurt deeply. And, of course, I spent some time in that space of “What happened? What did I do? What could I have done differently? Why, why, why?” I allowed myself to feel these emotions and work through them. What a great lesson! I realized that in being my authentic self with these friends, they were mirroring their own “stuff” into me the whole time. It truly was their own “Stuff” – not mine. What a release. Now, I’m not saying that it didn’t hurt any longer – it most certainly did. But, with the knowing that they left from their own issues, I was able to work through and move forward in my own self. It would have been very easy to fall back into the pain and say “I’ll never be that close to anyone again. I can’t be myself.” But, I am myself. I chose to live authentically! I chose to be who I am – with no apologies. I also found out through all of this just how many friends I really have. Wow! People came out of the woodwork to bring support and love. And I didn’t share with anyone what had happened. In fact, this is the first day I have gone “public” with this. Spirit and Great Mother know when a child is hurt, and She sends others to help. Remember that!

Both of my daughters went through some very major physical and emotional problems this past year. My oldest daughter’s retina became detached and required several procedures and surgeries. My youngest had an eardrum rupture that required not working for a few weeks. Through all of this, I got to witness how amazing women my girls have become. They both went through with grace and such positive attitudes that I was excited that I get to say, “Those are my girls!”

My brother and sister-in-law came to stay with us for a bit while he transitioned from retiring from the Navy to being a civilian. They are still adjusting, but there are tremendous possibilities. I have seen first hand how our Veterans are treated after they leave the service of our country. I’m still working on the emotions of that one – I am appalled at how they are treated. After giving 20 years to our country, he is told over and over that he is unhirable because he was too long out of the civilian workforce. I have to work on that one!

I have the pleasure to have new friends that have welcomed me in their circle. I am being myself – authentic – and they get me. They are all like me – empaths, intuitives, psychics, channelers, Lightworkers. They are truly the same and honor each other in a way I haven’t seen since I moved up from Southern California. I have learned that I am truly a remarkable being that is moving into her purpose and mission. That in itself is a wonderful lesson mastered.

Today, I sit at my desk with my grandson by my side and I am truly grateful for the events of 2010 – the joy and the pain. Without it, I would not be in the space I am now.

So, as you reflect on 2010, realize how very special each and every lesson is to our growth and development. Each event in our life brings us closer to what we are supposed to become. Relish in the events and grow!

Blessings in Light!

Gaia Renee

Hello world!

06 Oct 2010 Leave a comment

by Camille in All About Me

I have always thought about having my own Blog. So, here I am! I am on a most magical journey and I want to share it with you. It is my desire to share all of the pain and laughter. Part of what I want to share with you is what comes to me from my Soul Family.

So, here’s a little about me. You’ll learn more as we go on. I am GaiaRenee Meredith Vacek. Long name – yes, but my full name means a lot. I used to have another name, but that’s another blog post for another time. For now, call me GaiaRenee. I trained under an amazing teacher on Southern California in Shamanism – privately trained and not through a “corporate” pricey school that doles certificates and titles. Real training that got down to the grit of Shamanism. I also trained with an amazing Witch named Kendra and am a 3rd Degree High Priestess of the Sacred Way. What is that? I am trained in the Goddess Mysteries. I am a Reiki Master/Teacher with two lineages – one from my Shaman teacher and one from William Rand, founder of International Center of Reiki Training. I am also a Registered Karuna Reiki/Master with the ICRT. What else – oh, there’s lots! I am a spiritual counselor, author, lecturer, teacher, and intuitive healer. Oh, and I’m a Certified Massage Therapist, although I’m leaving that field to teach Sacred Feminine Mysteries. I founded the Crystalline Reiki Healing and work with an amazing couple, Robert Zink and Mary Kresky leading and facilitating conferences and workshops world wide. I hold a Doctorate of Divinity and Metaphysical Sciences. I teach Law of Attraction and Energy Healing Practices. These are some of my titles. They are great to have, but what’s really important is what happens in my Inner Being.

I am honored to Direct Voice Channel Mother Gaia, the Holy Shekinah and the Sophia Council. She comes to me constantly to give messages. Now She is pushing to share Her messages with the world. That’s part of what this blog is all about. For me to share with you Her messages and to share my journey with you during this Shift that is coming.

So, fasten your seat belts, put your trays in the upright positions, and hold on! It’s sure to be a great ride!

In Love and Light,

GaiaRenee