Funny how things change! You think you have your life mapped out, all routes considered, landmarks noted, mileage calculated. Then, BAM! In the blink of an eye, someone threw the map out the window!
After my knee replacement, I had everything worked out. I would begin my writing career full time, begin editing for other authors full time, finish my degree, and leave working with special needs adults.
The brakes hit, and I came to a screeching halt. Circumstances being what they are, I cannot leave my job. The time I expected to have to finish my book and finish my poetry anthologies, take on more editing clients was thrown out the window along with the map I had so meticulously crafted.
The old arrival date is no more, and I no longer have even an estimated time of arrival. Oh, I’m not complaining. Well, maybe a little. I know that everything happens in its right and perfect time. I thought I was expecting my time to be the right and perfect time.
So, we all know the Law of Attraction. If you don’t, you must have been hiding your head in the sand. You know, you create what you expect? And vice versa, you create what you fear. Yeah, we all know that. Sometimes, what we consciously think we are expecting is in direct opposition to what we subconsciously “know.” That’s my case. Although, I consciously believed that I would be firmly established enough in my new writing and editing career, subconsciously, I knew it wasn’t time yet.
I still have a way to go. First of all, I forgot to do the oil change and change the tires. There are certain things that have to be done while I am setting my mind on the outcome I desire. You see, just because I’ve set my desire does not mean it is right timing.
Here’s the deal. I am still in school and won’t graduate until September. In these final classes, intense work is expected. I am not sure the extra work would be overwhelming and put me into a tailspin upon leaving the gate. I have to concentrate on completing that degree. Once done, I have changed the oil and changed the tires, and I am good to go.
Until then? I continue to write as often as I can. I continue to edit the few authors I have taken on. And I continue to do what needs to be done to pay my bills. Remembering all the while that I have created a new map that includes the twists and turns – even a scenic route here and there.
I’m on my way to creating the most amazing life I could imagine, and all in its right and perfect timing.
Dancing Naked 